LET YOU GO

It's funny how can I love someone who I don't really know at all.

And how can I say goodbye to someone who never be mine?


HA-HA-HA-HAAAAAAA!

Try to let him walk away from my mind because I was afraid. Afraid that he would break my heart. They told me that he's not a right person. He's wrong. And I bet that he knows how much I want him to be mine but he just can't do anything about it. Simply, it means he don't want me. He won't understand what I mean for sure.

I gotta move on,

walk away from your life.

One thing that you need to know. I didn't stop loving you. I just decide to stop showing it cause no matter how hard I tried to get you, you just wouldn't get it. And if this way will make you happy, I will. Your happiness is also mine. Now, I've to pretend that I don't really care.

"Don't worry, just breath. If it's mean to be, it will find it's way."

BROKEN EYES

Can you see the tears behind these eyes?

Well, I'm sick. I've got problem in my eyes since I was 5. I'm not in good condition anymore. My eyes are broken. They are so fuckin sensitive. I hate these broken eyes. I hate these tears through my eyes. I'm sick of feeling this pain. Sick of pretending that I'm normal behind those transparent contact lens. So please, dear tears don't fall. They crash around me.................

"Apakah yang lebih mengecewakan daripada
harapan yang hilang?"

-Soe Hok Gie

MY NOVEMBER

Earlier november. You came to me.
Got introduced to you by a friend.
You're different. You're cool. No, really cold!



You don't like girl who talk dirty
So I tried to be careful what I say
You don't like girls who smoke
I want you to know that I am not
You don't like girls who like to go home at night
I'm sorry for that, trust me I didn't do something stupid
You don't like fat girls So, I'm trying to get skinny!

That's all. For you.
Still not enough, huh?

Feels like I'm falling in love alone.
You're only taking and not given anymore.
I'm always wrong in your eyes.
I know that you never really mean,
everyword you said to me.
What should I do?
Should I give up?

Well, I GIVE UP.

HAPPY BLAST18DAY!

Sunday, November 21st, 2010. Happy birthday; Mutiara Bilha!
Thanks for everyone who wish me all the best. God bless you. Love y'all!

Voice notes:

Viky... "Mumutku! Happy birthday sayang. All the best to you. Rajin kuliahnya terus ya pokoknya yang seneng2 buat mumut. Oke? Happy birthday sayang, mwaaah."
"Happy birthday muti, happy birthday muti. Happy birthday happy birthday, happy birthday mutiiii. Selamat ulangtahun ya mut, semoga panjang umur dan sehat selalu. Amin" ...Eja

And many more...

Surprise from my best

From mom. She left this cake before she went out

From my old best buddies

From my college mates

BIG THANKS FOR YOU GUYS
IT MEANS A LOT TO ME <3

Terima, kasih

NEW LIFE, RAWAMANGUN

Halo lama tidak berjumpa. Lama tidak mengurus halaman ini. Sekarang lagi sempet mau banyak curhat sebenernya :D hahahah. Sebagaimana diketahui gue sekarang kuliah di UNJ dan centilnya pake ngekos segala padahal masih di Jakarta juga yang tetanggaan sama Tangerang. Ngekos? Enak ngga enak sebenernya. Lebih banyak ngga enaknya kalo buat gue pribadi. Tidur sendiri cari makan sendiri ngatur uang sendiri mandi sendiri (yaiyalah) pokoknya apa2 sendiri. Yang biasanya makan udah siap tinggal makan sekarang harus beli nyari sendiri. Biasanya kalo pagi ngga sarapan paling minum susu doang. Yang biasanya dibangunin sekarang bangun sendiri bermodalkan alarm di hp. Terus harus nyuci baju sendiri nyeterika sendiri. Belum lagi tugas kuliah yang ngga nyantai. Ada aja. Ada2 aja. Tapi jalanin aja udah jalannya begini mau gimana :') #soktegar.

Untungnya gue dapet temen2 yang baik disana. Baik. Baik banget. Karena mereka hidup di rawamangun jadi ngga sepi. Setidaknya kalo siang sampe sore rame sama mereka, walaupun kalo udah malem kos gue kayak kuburan sepinya. Dan enaknya itu ngekos adalah kepeleset juga nyampe muahahahahah. Udah ah capek ngetik bingung. Byeeeeeeeeee

IT'S JUST ANOTHER STORY

You look like you're letting go
I know that you won't call on me
You look like you're letting go
I know what my instincts are telling me
And you're fading out
It's so hard without you
This wasn't my fault

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
This is all that I remember before you changed
You're stuck in the dream with next to nothing
I'm all alone and nothings what it seems
Without you next to me



Here thanks for everything
I'll always remember, E!

If you look at me and see the devil,
you are just looking at a reflection of yourself.

Boys? Not for serious thing as long as they asshole.

SEAN THE KING

Welcome to my friend. Hayden O'Connor just called him Sean! As you see we met on omegle. A great way of meeting new friends. New-strangers-friends :p He's 19 years old guy from Canada.

I told him about something. My problem. Just share each other. When it was his turn, he told me that he had a problem about romance. I just can't believe it. Girls tend not to ever seem interested in him at all. I don't think so. He's good-looking person. Very very nice and super friendly. Well maybe this isn't the right time for him. Trust me someday you'll get a good one. Cheers :D

S: What makes a guy attractive to you?
M: I dunno maybe you know what
S: I'd say it's how nice you are for one thing, you're gentle sense of humor, as well as how smart and honest you are when you are talking. Being very, very, pretty helps you too!
M: Ahhhh thanks. You make me blushing
S: You're welcome but it's all very true! Hey you're even cuter when you blush
M: HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

THANKS! <3
It was nice to met you, Sean!

AKU BENCI HUJAN

I do love the rain. But it's all depends of situation and condition. And I hate it now. My mood changes easily when it rains. I'm going to down then down. I can't go anywhere. It makes everything wet, dirty, and slippery. SUCKS

Rainy rainy go away. Come again another day!!!!!!

Who says only eyes can see everything?
My heart did it well.

#INDONESIA65

MerahPutih
Indonesia is my nation
And I'm proud to be Indonesian

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY INDONESIA

Bersatu kita teguh. Bercerah kita runtuh.

Merdeka adalah bebas dari rasa takut.

MERDEKA!

DREAM IT? DO IT!

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
-Westlife

Well, we all have dreams. Usually while we’re asleep. Such dreams could be more hurtful than helpful. Cause that's not real. Most of us have a dream, aspiration, or heart’s desire. But the trouble is most of us have the on/off switch. Whenever we say, "I can’t," we set the switch to OFF. Whenever we believe we can, we set the switch to ON. Simple, isn’t it? Just because I believe I can do something doesn’t mean there won’t be any problems. But once I believe I can do it, I will seek solutions for every problem. Before our dreams can come true, don’t we have to dream? Isn’t there a good reason for dreaming? Any problem? So keep dreaming and just,

FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS!

There are images around us, in everything we see
Some are real and some are fantasy
Follow your dreams and you will see
Anything you want you can achieve
The dreams you hold will get you through
The power you need comes from within
Someday you'll know it's in your hands
You'll find out in time every misery's
Meant to make you feel you're stronger to agree
Follow your dreams
Do what you love to do
What you love to do :)

DREAM QUOTES:
"Remember your dreams tonight and then get busy tomorrow making them real!"

RZ-ZOO!

Heeyaaa! The day before yesterday, I went to Ragunan Zoo.
Welcome to the jungle >:O

SWEETEST PAIN

Going back to the corner where I first met you. Added almost three years ago. You went there just to say hello. You know? Do you ever fucking know?!? These places means so much to me. Well, I know you are not. These places are filled with memories. Good for detected pain. My sweetest pain is you. And the sweet is never as sweet without the sour.


QUOTES OF THE DAY:

"What if you could go back in time and take all those hours of pain and replace them with something better?"
-Donnie Darko

"I don't want to need you, because I can't have you."

-The Bridges of Madison Count

NEW KIDS :D

Let me introduce my new kids. This is it, my little monsters :D The white one named Cobby. And the grey one named Cello. How cute they areeee..... >_< I'm so gemyeesssshhhhh

The next day after I got it monsters. So sadly, Cello was dead. I dunno what happened :( Yeah maybe it was ill when I got it. Cello's body looks fat, it because it fur is really thick. But in fact it was very tiny-small-fragile.

Special hanks to my Dara who gave me it monsters ♥
Sorry I can't keep Cello.............. :(

BREAKIN'

In a clear view there’s a silhouette
And I watch you and I can’t forget

When I see you in a silhouette
And you hold close, do you feel regret?

In a clear view there’s a silhouette
And I watch you no I’ll never forget

I figured it out, breaking's what the heart is for~


The song by, The All American Rejects

APOLOGIZE

"I loved you with a fire red now it's turning blue."

Timbaland Ft. One Republic

REVIEW; DEAR JOHN

What would you do with a letter that changed everything?

Special Forces Army Sergeant John Tyree (Channing Tatum) is home on a two-week leave from Germany. He meets Savannah Curtis (Amanda Seyfried) after he dives into the ocean to retrieve Savannah's purse that had fallen off the pier. John is smitten by Savannah and falls in love at first sight. Savannah is a college student at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. She is on spring break and is helping build a house for Habitat for Humanity. John joins in with Savannah to help build the house. Along the way a budding romance occurs, and Savannah falls deeply in love with John. As she is about to go back to college, she promises to write John overseas during the next 12-months until he returns to her after completing his enlistment. Their love is put to the test when John reenlists after the 9/11 attack.

Well, I didn't read the book. When the first time I saw this film I'm finding myself slightly obsessed with this film. This film was excellent. Extremely cool. I really want to watch it again and again. I feel in love with their characters and passionate love scene :p It's really touching me. I cried when I watch it alone. Especially when John was reading the letter to his dad, when the letter from Sav came about that she wanna find someone else. Oh ya I really like those six words; I'll see you soon then... The best love story ever. If only all guys were like John.....

FAVORITE QUOTES:
"Two weeks together, that's all it took, two weeks for me to fall for you."
"I finally understood what true love meant. Love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be."
"I love you, not just for now, but for always, and I dream of the day that you’ll take me in your arms again."
"When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through."

SPAIN IS THE WINNER!

viva la espana!

PSYCHIC OCTOPUS

EL PULPO PAULO

Paul the psychic octopus predicts that SPAIN will be the 2010WC champions! So yeah I wish it's gonna be real. I'm with you Paul ♥ LOL! It's so funny that I believe in the octopus. Who's care? We'll see :D

VISIT WEST JAVA 2010

HOLIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!

#1 BATU KARAS BEACH

06.45 AM

Playing!

#2 GREEN CANYON

Welcome!


Unfortunately, the water was colored brown when I get there because of rainy season.
And I'm too lazy for swimming here. Just got tired after played in Batu Karas.
But next time I'll try this one. Please turn green!

#3 PANGANDARAN BEACH

Pangandaran is beautifully fun!


Just made temporary tattoo on my left hand.
It means 'DREAM' :) Pssst don't let my parent know about it.
They gonna kill me (lebe yah T_T cuma sementara doang)