BROKEN EYES

Can you see the tears behind these eyes?

Well, I'm sick. I've got problem in my eyes since I was 5. I'm not in good condition anymore. My eyes are broken. They are so fuckin sensitive. I hate these broken eyes. I hate these tears through my eyes. I'm sick of feeling this pain. Sick of pretending that I'm normal behind those transparent contact lens. So please, dear tears don't fall. They crash around me.................

"Apakah yang lebih mengecewakan daripada
harapan yang hilang?"

-Soe Hok Gie

MY NOVEMBER

Earlier november. You came to me.
Got introduced to you by a friend.
You're different. You're cool. No, really cold!



You don't like girl who talk dirty
So I tried to be careful what I say
You don't like girls who smoke
I want you to know that I am not
You don't like girls who like to go home at night
I'm sorry for that, trust me I didn't do something stupid
You don't like fat girls So, I'm trying to get skinny!

That's all. For you.
Still not enough, huh?

Feels like I'm falling in love alone.
You're only taking and not given anymore.
I'm always wrong in your eyes.
I know that you never really mean,
everyword you said to me.
What should I do?
Should I give up?

Well, I GIVE UP.

HAPPY BLAST18DAY!

Sunday, November 21st, 2010. Happy birthday; Mutiara Bilha!
Thanks for everyone who wish me all the best. God bless you. Love y'all!

Voice notes:

Viky... "Mumutku! Happy birthday sayang. All the best to you. Rajin kuliahnya terus ya pokoknya yang seneng2 buat mumut. Oke? Happy birthday sayang, mwaaah."
"Happy birthday muti, happy birthday muti. Happy birthday happy birthday, happy birthday mutiiii. Selamat ulangtahun ya mut, semoga panjang umur dan sehat selalu. Amin" ...Eja

And many more...

Surprise from my best

From mom. She left this cake before she went out

From my old best buddies

From my college mates

BIG THANKS FOR YOU GUYS
IT MEANS A LOT TO ME <3